Well, I got up really early this morning. I greeted the rising of the sun with a headache. Once I was awake enough to feel the headache, I knew I had to get out of bed and take something. Perhaps there's a nap in my future........
I've been reading blogs this morning and I'm all teary-eyed and sentimental. Maybe it's just spill over from not enough sleep?
I know from long experience that moving around when I've got a headache just escalates the pain so I spent some time on two blogs. They are written by sisters, one a Baptist minister's wife and the other her sister, home decorating DIY person extraordinaire, and mother of four. Anyway, they both live somewhere in the south and until a few months ago, lived very close to their parents. Unfortunately, their mother, who was 5 years older than I am, passed away about 6 months ago. They were very close to her and she was very much a part of their everyday lives. They talked to her daily by phone, spent time with her in all sorts of family functions, turned to her for advice on many subjects. She must have been a very special woman as they can't seem to praise her and emulate her enough. If you promise not to get as maudlin as I am, you can check out their blogs here: Traci http://beneathmyheart.blogspot.com and Cyndi's blog http://lovinlifeasapastorswife-cyndi.blogspot.com/
I wonder sometimes (and I know from whom these thoughts originate, so don't bother telling me) if anyone will miss me when I'm gone. Reading about the death of a woman just 5 years older than me gets me to thinking. I live just 4 miles from my daughter, but we seldom talk on the phone just to chat or spend time doing anything together. She's busy with three kids, a job with crazy hours, etc. I'm busy with work, designing, etc. though my schedule is much more flexible than hers, and I frequently do not feel well. I do see my grandchildren fairly often because I get to babysit and they are enough, all by themselves, to make life worth living no matter how tough the going gets. Joe will miss my cooking. That seems to be his primary interest in me. If I ask him why he loves me, invariably, he will bring up my cooking. And once that is said, he's out of things to say. Maybe I just don't have that many good qualities........ Yesterday, I took special care styling my hair. I don't know why; maybe it was in celebration of uploading the last element pack to ACOT (not done at NDISB yet). Anyway, when I asked him if it looked okay, he just laughed at me. Guess it looked funny?
I do live my life trying to be the person I believe my Lord and my God would want me to be. I am not a naturally thoughtful person. I don't really have "the gift" of hospitality. I wish I did. I have all these tax clients who troop into my home every year, who've known me for 20 years, but would they even bother to come to my memorial service? Matthew and Patty might come, but if they did, it would be as a comfort to Joe, not because I'm anything special in their lives. I see Matthew at work, but outside the office Joe and I haven't spent any time with them since their wedding. I was wrong in the conclusion I drew this past week, but I honestly thought Patty had had a baby shower and I was not invited. Actually, she had gone to a baby shower, but that's not what I got from her one-liner on Facebook. The sad part was that while I was hurt, thinking she'd had a baby shower and I wasn't invited, I wasn't surprised. I do think I have the gift of encouragement and I'm a very empathetic person. Let's face it, a lot of my "friends" are internet friends. I doubt they'll be showing up for my homegoing!
Ah well, the things I think about. I think, though Joe has the ability to make me crazy in 5 seconds or less, maybe I am just beginning to feel being alone so much of the time. Oh, I know I'm not really alone, but sometimes I just miss having someone around with skin on..... This is probably all just spillover from that.
I actually did talk to Jen on the phone yesterday. Seems young master Will has a "friend" and his "friend" is a girl. At 10, he's starting awfully young, but I remember his mother talking about having "boyfriends" in second grade..... Must come with my ex-husband's gene set......... I thought she was all done teaching her weekend classes, but she informed me she still has 3 to teach. That'll put a bit of a crimp on Easter at her house.
The good news for yesterday: I took a little bit of the tax money and bought Joe and I each a pair of running shoes. I don't think he's even tried his on yet, but mine were on my feet within minutes of landing at the front door. They're wonderful. Like pillows for your feet. I do hope that new shoes, with shock absorption that isn't all worn out, may be a benefit for my back. Anyway, I got them here: www.6pm.com. I recommend you check them out if you need running shoes, or just a cutesy pair of summer sandals. They have great prices. I really think I may have gotten these even more affordably than I could have gotten shoes on e-bay which has been my usual source. I try always to get New Balance running shoes, so that helps. I KNOW how New Balance fit, so I can order them with confidence that I won't have to return them!
Designing
I finally got the last of the element packs into the store yesterday, just before I ran out of here, headed for work. I guess I should show you some previews:
This pack contains 50 color coordinated buttons and 10 color coordinated solid satin bows. I had a designer friend of mine do this preview as the one I'd made just about turned my stomach! She made everything look really good.
This pack is all about birdies and birdhouses, 10 of each, color coordinated to the spring paper packs.
I did 10 glitter flourishes and 10 page borders in glitter. This is the one I just finished yesterday. I HAD to have a little bling....
It seemed to me that butterflies were pretty springy. I did both doodled butterflies and soft silky butterflies so they'd fit with the mood of any layout.
Gotta have a few spring flowers. This is an UGLY preview, but I think it was somewhere around midnight when I did it, so forgive me. 10 doodled flowers, 10 silk flowers.
I'm not totally thrilled with this preview either, but it is not all that easy to preview 20 frames, you know?
I've been referring to this preview as "Medusa's hair". If you are familiar with mythology, you know that Medusa's hair was actually snakes wiggling all over her head. See the resemblance? There are 10 dotted bows, 10 dotted ribbons, 10 solid curly ribbons and 10 pieces of RicRak. Though I created these to go with the spring paper pack, I kind of think they would go with almost any spring layout.
I really want to work on something TOTALLY different. I have had it with spring pastels, and, perhaps now, you can see why!
Okay, I'm once again accumulating a pile of tax returns to do and my house is a shambles. Got to get movin! Have a great day!